This time, I cant let THEM go even if I die!

30-November-2010 - Hmmm its finally the end of November. Wowieee.. Time flies real fast. I must say, I am single & available but I have two men in my life. Hows that?? Realllll freaky rite? I already broke up with my 1st bf, but we still keep in touch even he's with somebody else oredy. We still smses, call each other.. Going out 2gtha w/o I actually know, are there still love feelings between us? I seriusly cant answer it. And for the other one, my love, we still calling / smses each other. Still going out when he's around. & soon, we are going for a trip, an expedition together. Hmmm.... Actually, & seriusly, WHAT AM I DOING???

I am sooooo afraid i be losing them both becoz wut I did. Its like, playing & toying them both. I am sooo damn freaky useless fella. Huhuhuhu. What i know is, I want them both to be part of me. I cant let them go even if I die......

Not so happy ending....

20 November 2010 - Its been so long... Oh dear diary, I need u to show how much I suffered. Well, its expected & written though. Time passes real quick, its nearly November end. My career is getting good. Few offers coming in. I just need to pick job that really challenge my ability & my skill. I love challenge!! Well, there are lotsa lotsa thing to be considered though. I need time to think.

Me & him? Nothings wrong. But deep heart digging makes me realise facts that can never be change. Its about our future. Well actually, ITS ABSOLUTE @ INFINITE @ NO FUTURE for us. Like I mention earlier, we are of different religion, beliefs. Our heart our feelings of love is obviously exist. But how long can it hold if u dont have any intention to get married bcoz u know ur fam wont approve?

He better not wasting his time with me. He's close to 30 in about 2 years plus, its no longer time for lovey dovey, i love u, i miss u or wutsoever, its time to settle down. So I figured, no matter how much I love him, still it cant buy me my religion. No compromising on the religion for both of us? So, wuts the point of taking our relationship much longer? Its hurting by just thinking of it.

Conclusion is, BACK OUT. Theres no need to carry forward. Let him go & go away from me. I know decision is not mine alone. Its a relationship, 2 way relationship, I dont know what will he say but this, but I am certain, he will be ok. He loves his religion way way way much than me, & so do I. I guess he will be fine.

Still I cant hide my sorrow. I still think of him in my every single breath. I sleep with the thoughts, Is he doing OK? Have he eaten yet? Hows his health? He completed all his job already? When will he be back to hometown? And then, when I wake up, the same questions re-appear, again and again.

Even worst, I keep thinking, is he still thinking of me? Ever he miss me? Does he miss hanging around with me? Will he blow me when we bumped each other? Sigh sigh & sigh..... I feel like crying.... I am so alone again.. I hope he'll find the right girl for him but I am so not READY to see him with another girl. I cant help feeling jealous. I will envy the girl that he loves, whoever she is.

I sleep, I woke up with a broken heart. This feeling nearly bring me down. Lucky, I have my colleagues, my frens & family that can distract me from this feeling. But still, I cant erase him from my mind, with a single clap. I need time, yes time, but Im not sure till when it is.

Dear darling, if u read this someday, I hope & really hope, u will know my true feeling bout u. My every single "I miss U" & "I love U" note, is real, & will always be real. My feeling towards u was & is never fake, Im being honest with u, I am so transparent to u. But the fate the love the future is not for us.

Looking forward for your arrival. It maybe tough, but I promise, I will play cool. I know, I still able to smile, happy with just looking at u even with a far distance... Thank you for loving me once. *hugs*kisses*tear*

Sunday, Tuesday, Wednesday

THURSDAY, 11-11-10. Day 1, love being away from me. Spent 3 days of November with love atm.. sempat dating twice. *blush*blush*. I am so happy. He is a good companion actually. Even tho our status is not clear. Actualy i almost give up, coz i realy tot he quit maa. he seldom kol me for the past two weeks, so DISASTER ok! *sad*sad*. But the I confront him oredy, voicing out my concern bout his what-i-called-ignorance... He deny it, the term IGNORANCE is so NOT TRUE. He just being TENSION & PRESSURE with his never-ending-job. I mean, 24 days out of 30 day of a month being away from home, spending time very less with the parents & family... I understand than y... I felt so GUILTY. & now bcoz I complaint bout that, he started to kol & kol me. I feel a bit so worry actualy, I am afraid he might tinks that I am so childish & spoil.. Hmmmm..... Oh I hate this feeling. Please go away!

TUESDAY, 10-NOV-10. 1st time this month we go dating malam. I have curfew remember. I inform my fam early, Im going out with the frens. Sorry dad, its actually "going out with FRENS with no S at the back". Becoz i ady said im sulking, he loves to sakat me more! which is making me smiling all the way! he is very good in it. OK i give up, forgiven. We talk n share our story. I must admit, I love him more day by day, I cant afford to lose him. Hear me Lord, I need him in my life.... God Willing.. Someday, we'll be legally united. *smile*smile*

I cried last nite...

Last nite was tough tough for me to go thru. OMG... Never I expected to be in that situation again. I tot I am strong enaf to just live with it. Love didnt give me a kol nor sms me except in the morning. I feel like so the END of the world. Bad tots keep running in my mind. The words "We r over", "He doesnt want this relationship" & "He leaving me" keep residing in my mind. I feel like TERRIBLE. I woke up at dawn just to check whether he called or sms. FRUSTRATING to c NONE. I continue sleeping with a broken heart. For the 1st time I tot he leave me oredy. What I expect rite? We made it clear oredy, go on with it until we want it stop.. I tot he wants to quit oredy... I woke up in the morning, feeling sad, bad. I tried my best to act normal, to act happy. But deep inside, I m HURT.

Then, in the office, my fon rings. His name in the screen. Im not happy, nor angry. I feel NEUTRAL. I pick up the fon. The 1st word he said, "Gudmorning, where are you?". W/O me asking y didnt he contact me, he started to explain. I listen to his every word. I said, "Ya, till u LUPA sy kan?, Sy MERAJUK". He laugh n said "Jgn merajuk, fon batt kong, x dpt on lgsg. Ni petang kita p dating". Trying to PUJUK lah tuh. BTW, I am a bit in happy mood, knowing he's fine. So, lets see this evening if he keeps his word.

Oh, yesterday the ex suddenly text me. Talking nonsense & things that makes me more more angry. Seriusly, I feel so much OFFENDED. Y on earth he text me in the middle of the nite saying I take him for GRANTED. OMG ok! I wonder who is the one who showing off the new gf to public. People see, people judge. Stop telling me u wants to take the blame alone so that people stop judging that I was to one who ruined our very relationship. End is End. I know I was the one to blame at the first place. But ur COUNTERATTACK was so much MEAN! To the ex, we are history oredy. Even if I & love will be off 1 day, I wont coming back to u.

Me and the Two Weeks.....

Today is THURSDAY, NOVEMBER 4th, 2010. Genap 2 MINGGU me & love didnt actually meet in person. Kalah org kerja OFFSHORE, atleast confirm every two weeks they will be ONSHORE. Al-kesahnya, love shud have reach hometown this morning, but UNLUCKILY, there is NO TICKETS until WEEKEND!!! I am so FRUSTRATED. I tot I can spend DEEPAVALI with him. Spend weekend with him. Sigh. I cant complaint much tho coz I know his work very very well. Kalau anda anda & anda di tmpt sy, can u stand being AWAY from ur LOVED one? To be frank, sometimes, I feel so much SUFFERED. Seriusly I TRUSTED him, I never have a bad thought saying he might go out with someone else. Well maybe I sound so NAIVE.. But this is the real me. When I trust someone, I trust him completely.

To be contd....

Today is MONDAY, NOVEMBER 8th, 2010. Finally, love already home. Happy happy mode. There are lotsa lotsa tough thing happens to me lately. I need love by my side. Only he can make me happy. I always wanna be with him. But ya, both of us are tied with our career. Besides me having a curfew at nite. Hmmm cant see him as frequent as I want. Met him at 6pm than we having dinner together. Grab some groceries the supermarket nearby. Before we go back, love kiss me at my forehead. I feel completely secure. I remember smiling all the way home. It made my day. We supposed to meet up tonite but I cant go home late otherwise the daddy will be bla bla bla, of coz I understand he worry bout his daughter's safety. I dont blame him, I am grateful to have a daddy who care. 

Oh I have bad bad news. Love will be leaving again within this week. For about another 2 weeks. Hmmmm I wonder y TWO WEEKS love to separate us. Please be GOOD to me. Worst case scenario, love will be leaving on, say NOVEMBER 10th, TWO WEEKS ends on NOVEMBER 24th. Sigh....... Can you see the date? Now is only 8th, possibly we only can meet again on the 24th, 25th or maybe 26th! OMG.... Thats toooooo long. Hmmm. I am so missing spending time with him. Going to the movie, or touring around KK. Hmmm.. November is supposed to be sweet..... I wonder y I need to face this. My hope now, DECEMBER will be OUR MONTH. Please GRANT my WISH dear ALLAH. Amin,

Oh I am so HANYUT......

Hanyut - Faizal Tahir

Harus bagaimana lagi
Dan terus begini
Dengarkan aku
Lihat ke mataku
Cukup sudah kau menghukum
Salahku tetap salahku
Benarkan ku berbicara
Agar bisa pulih semua
Namun harus sampai bila
Kau kan diam seribu bahasa

Chorus
Maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu
Fahamilah ku tak mampu terus tanpa kamu
Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila tiada mengganti
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja
Saat mata terpejam
Hanya kau ku terbayang
Menghapus semua segala rasa di jiwaku
Saat mata terbuka
Kamulah yang pertama
Tak mampu aku
Bayangkan
Hidup tanpa dirimu

Ulang Chorus

Aku memang bersalah
Selalu saja mengabaikan mu
Dan tapi dah ku sedari
Segala perit kau lalui
Ku terlupa kau terluka
Dan memang selalu
Aku bersalah
Selalu saja mengabaikan mu
Meninggalkan mu
Dan tetapi itulah aku sedari
Segala perit yang kau lalui
Kerna diriku yang terus hanyut
Maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu
Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila tiada mengganti
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja
Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila kau tak di sisi
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

Bagi anda pencinta seni, even if u are not MALAY songs fan, I am so very sure u will fall in love with this song. Baitnya INDAH sekali. Muziknya make me FLY.... I wud say this song is ALMOST PERFECT atleast for me. Im not a fancy of Malay songs, but somehow this song manage to caught my attention since the 1st time I listen to it. FAIZAL TAHIR sure a strong vocalist. Even though dia bawa LIVE a bit HANCUS, but hey nobody perfect, dia pun sometimes kureng stamina jga kan? I dont blame him, & honestly, he can make Malaysia proud with his talent. Kalau lah MANUSIA itu dapat baca BLOG ni, I dedicated this line for u "Cukup Sudah Kau Menghukum Salahku Tetap Salahku"... Sy tau sy sedar akan KEKHILAFAN sy. Sy tau sy SALAH, TOLONG MAAFKAN SAYA. "Dan tapi dah ku sedari Segala perit kau lalui Ku terlupa kau terluka" . Saya tahu ANDA terluka, tp benda dah jadi, sy x dpt TURN BACK TIME & tukar SEJARAH. Sy dah POHON MAAF berkali2, till UNCOUNTABLE ungkapan MAAF sy, even ANDA layan sy ENDAH TAK ENDAH, sy tetap cuba minta maaf, malangnya, MAAF anda CUMA SEMENTARA.... And for that, I know, U WILL NEVER COMPLETELY FORGIVE ME.... Sy tak BERDENDAM, sy tetap di sini, waiting for you as a GOOD FRIEND..

Some people might have BLAME me, saying me CURANG, but believe me or not, actually I tak curang time masih bersama dgn ORANG ITU. Ketika I di TUDUH, di FITNAH, di CERCA, love ada di SISI Giving me support & advise. Love x pernah paksa I. And for that, I slowly in love with Love... Anda anda & anda tak tahu how I went thru the SICKENING MOMENT of CONDEMNATION. I only have Love & my BFF that very time... Giving me support, giving me the strength to face the people. I was HUMILIATED publicly. Sakit... I really FALL DOWN that moment. Sy mengadu tp sy TAK CERITAKAN semua. Sy tak CANANG apa SEBENAR yg berlaku. Cukup lah sy tahu, sy dah MAAFKAN dia. I am ready to be his friend. There's no chance for me to return to him but hey I am just human, He will arrange it for me. I used to love him, maybe & just maybe, I will someday. To Love, I LOVE YOU so VERY MUCH, but we both know, our ending is so much FADED. Deep inside, I am always GRATEFUL to be LOVED by you, even for a while.... P/S Love, when I see you smile, the world become so much brighter to me.... TE AMO!

I am so HANYUT for being in love..... So, that makes me a BAD PERSON rite? Tak kesah lah. I am TIRED with PEOPLE JUDGEMENT. I FOUND SOMEONE I LOVE, & being in love gives you the WARMTH FEELING no one can OFFER. If being in love makes me the CRIMINAL, dear POLICEMEN, PLEASE ARREST ME & RAISE THE COURT TRIAL! Till then, lotsa love love love.

Bercinta di Alam Maya a.k.a Virtual Dating

Hmmm sounds like so romantic kan? Terbayang ALAM KAYANGAN. Tp sebenarnya "ALAM MAYA" di sini adalah GERBANG KOMUNIKASI mll INTERNET. Means dlm entri ni, I nak tulis about how me & love yg dating di alam maya. Al-maklum, Love sll OUTSTATION, so kmi bersua muka cuma melalui SKYPE video call / chat or thru CELCOM video call. I miss him so much.... Ladies, dating mcm ni SWEET tau. I confirm u will senyum memanjang... Hehe.. Love pula someone yg HAPPY GO LUCKY, so he sll MAKE ME SMILE. Keburukan VIRTUAL DATING ni is I tambah bertambah tambah RINDU! Love... Bila balik. Huhuhuhuhu. Bad news dah td, Love x dpt balik diz coming DEEPAVALI. He tpksa STANBY. Huhuhu. Dah la hari KHAMIS ni @ 04 Nov 2010 genap DUA MINGGU Love OUTSTATION! Tak adil sungguh. Kesian dgn FAMILY Love, dah la IF Love x OS, Love CONFIRM spending TIME with me. Sometimes I feel UNEASY ok! But Love said,  I'm HIS PRIORITY! I'm MELTING.... Jgn JEALOUS ok!

Well, most of the time mg we just koling2 or sms. Tp sy igt pesan Love, SABARLAH.. Last nite, Love call around 7.50PM informing me he's going out for dinner with his frens. And then I xda follow up dah. I terTIDUR..  Hehehehe. Love x kol after that maybe tertidur jga. Nite b4 that we on kol till battery konk. Then only we say GUDNYTE.. So, sweet.. MANIS sekali. Nasiblah baik wpun x dpat bersua muka d alam nyata, ada alam maya utk kmi berkasih. Ok la 2... Kurang ckit kemungkinan2 dlm membuat aksi2 yg terlarang.. bak bait-bait lagu KALAU BERPACARAN nyanyian SUHAIMI MIOR, ANA RAFFALI & ALTIMET. Oh anyway, lagu 2 sangat CATCHY! Part Altimet "Duduk Rapat Rapat Nanti Comfirm Dapat", hahahaha. DUSHHHH kena batang hidung derrr!

Pangkah Biru vs Pangkah Merah

When September comes, I saw loads of my fren posting "Wakes Me Up When September Ends" in their FB... It feels like yesterday u c... Ironically, October has already ENDED! The world has sure moving around so so QUICKLY! I feel like dreaming. Now, we are in the month of NOVEMBER! Oh Nov, PLEASE be goooood to me.... Oct ada 31 hari, Nov ada 30 hari, maknanya Nov akan berlalu lebih cepat compare to Oct, kan kan??? Skrg, let us analysed the calender above. Apa pangkah biru? Apa pangkah merah?

Pangkah Biru        = Time Spent With LOVE      = 6 out of 31

Pangkah Merah    = Time LOVE Being Away     = 25 out of 31

Dari segi MATEMATIK, 6/31*100% = 19.35%. Wah!!!! X smpai 20% drpd bulan Oct kami bertemu.. Huhuhuhu sedih.. Tp what I need to do is STAY POSITIVE & be 200% PATIENT. LOVE, I love you, disctance wont separate our love. Oh Pangkah Merah tlg la jgn appear bnyk sgt dlm calender Nov. Tp, x bole berharap  jga, al-kesahnya love akan ke Sarawak, outstation lg. Nasib badan... Nasib baik hari2 koling + sms. Atleast I know him safe, he knows I am safe. 

Now baru 2 Nov, tp dah advance Pangkah Merah til 4 Nov. Tak mungkin Love dpt balik esok, tp 4hb mungkin ada HARAPAN. 5hb DEEPAVALI, supposedly, cuti.... Tp, blm tentu Love dpt balik. Kalo boleh I wish I can just fly there, spent time with him from 5 - 7 Nov. Tgk kdaan mcmna. Just, Love, I misssss you so so so so much! 

Pangkah Merah Pangkah Biru,

Hati Ini Haru Biru,

Pangkah Biru Pangkah Merah, 

Jangan Biar Hati Marah. 

10 of The Worlds Weirdest Looking Animals

These are 10 of the unusual looking animals the mother nature has given us. Honestly, I have no idea these 10 animal even exist! Kalo ckp Bayau ker, badak sumbu ka, ayam jantan... or paling kurang, ular albino tau la I. Neways, 1 new info for me. Lets check it out.

Source :  DJMick Really

Tarsier

Although the tarsier was once more widespread, all the species living today are found on the islands of Southeast Asia. Each eyeball is approximately 16 mm in diameter and is as large as their entire brain.

Frill-Necked Lizard
The frill-necked Lizard, so called because of the large ruff of skin around its neck, runs on its hind-legs when frightened. This behaviour has earned it the name ‘bicycle lizard’ in Australia.

Long-Beaked Echidna
The long-beaked echidna was named among the top-ten “focal species” in 2007 by the Evolutionarily Distinct and Globally Endangered project. Echidnas are one of two types of mammals that lay eggs.

Star-Nosed Mole
The star-nosed mole’s snout has 22 fleshy tentacles that are used to identify food by touch. Often found in North America, it lives in wet lowland areas and eats small invertebrates, aquatic insects, worms and molluscs.

Shoebill
The shoebill is a very large bird found in tropical swamps of eastern Africa. It stands at an average of four feet with a wingspan of over seven feet. The species was only discovered by ornithologists in the 19th century.

Long Eared Jerboa
The long eared Jerboa is a nocturnal mouse-like rodent found in the deserts of China and Mongolia. It has a long tail, long legs and extremely large ears. Being such a rare creature, it is in danger of extinction.

 Aye-Aye
The aye-aye shares a lot in common with the woodpecker – it taps trees to find grubs. When food is located it uses its rodent-like teeth to gnaw a hole, then digs them out with its long middle finger.

Hispaniolan Solenodon
The Hispaniolan solenodon, a strange looking shrew-like creature with a long snout and specialised teeth capable of delivering venom. Only two solenodon species exist today, one in Haiti and the Dominican Republic, and the other in Cuba.

Indian Gharial
The Indian gharial is a critically endangered species and one of the longest of all living crocodilians, sometimes measuring over 20 feet.

Hungarian Puli Dog
Similiar to the komondor breed, the Hungarian puli dog also has a coat of dreadlock-type cords. The breed rarely moults and is deceptively fast and acrobatic

Me, Contact Lens & Spectacles......

Uishhh I can't stop writing! LOL. Its not bcoz Im too excited with blogging ok, its just bcoz, love is not here for 12 days oredy!!!!! My my my.. Almost 2 weeks... I am missing him so damn bad.. Love, please come back A.S.A.P... I missed ur laugh, I missed ur face, I missed u being with me.. Last we met, I kiss in the hand just to show how much I love him... Bahagia nya if I kissed him in the hand as his WIFE! OK, the story bout myself, lens & specs begins now! I am short-sighted eye.. I wish I have a perfect vision. Being RABUN is sooo hard. I cant hardly go anywhere w/o my spec/lens. Spec is the most convenience way, if I have to drive very early in the morning, how is it possible to put on my lenses. So menyusahkan ok! Mula2, mata x lah rabun, tp jeles tengok akak2 I rabun, pkai spec, nmpk mcm lawa, mcm budak pandai.. Kawan2 lain x pkai spec, if I pkai mesti jd the center of attention kan? LOL, itulah yg I fikirkan when I was so young.. Then time form 5 bermula lah kisah mata rabun. Dah nak SPM ok, mata dah blur2. Mcmana nak tgk cikgu mngajar kat depan? Terpaksalah I adjust2 my eyes, smpai mengecik dah mata tuk focusing so I can atleast see. Then I bought my first BAUSH & LOMB CLEAR lenses, RM50 FOR 3 months. 

Sbb nak beli spec mahal.... Kesian kat parents, so I just bought contact lens. Becoz Im going to college, so I decided I wud be moe convenient to buy a spec, x kan nak pkai lens dr siang ke malam kan? So I went to CP, RUMAH KACA MATA CHARMING. I am getting myself a TRANSPARENT WHITE SPECTACLE for RM250! ok la 2...   FRAMELESS lg tau! Frameless is very very very in trend that time. Its like 5 years ago, in 2005. So, in college everybody is like, "wow cantik ur spec, mana ko beli? "Soalan standard! LOL. Unfortunately, di suatu malam yg BORING, I went to take a bath, leaving my spec on top of my bed. & there u go, I forgot about the spec n dushhhhhh I landed straightly to bed n CRACKED!!!! OMG!!!!!! I m so freaking super duper angry that time! Dush dush dush! Luckily only 1 side of the spec is cracked. Masi dpt di selamatkan. I brougt it to optician so they can fix it. It cost me RM80! Money fly.... OK enaf with spec. Now I must say I m a CIRCLE LENSES fans. My first color contact is a GEO ANGEL BROWN. I bought it in 2008. I love the color is just that the lens wont stick in my eyes. Huhuhuhu. So bad... But there, I love to buy lenses online. From 2008 - 2010, I have these lenses:

Edward Cullen in Gold Contact

(1) Angel Brown
(2) Angel Gray
(3) BT02 Brown
(4) BT03 Gray
(5) Sweety Brown
(6) Omega Violet
(7) Omega Gray
(8) Dueba Violet
(9) Adult Brown
(10) Super Nudy Gray
(11) Super Nudy Gold
(12) Super Nudy Pink
(13) EOS Flower Brown
(14) Puffy 3 Tones Green

So, total lenses own from 2008 - 2010 is 14 pairs!!!! OMG............. I spent lotsa lotsa $$$ on lenses. Now, comes spectacles in the list:

Jessica Alba in Glasses

(1) Transparent Rimless White
(2) XS Blue Coated Spec

(3) Polo Grey Spec

(4) White Half-frame Spec
(5) Levi's Full Frame

Fuh... Only 5! Hehehehe. But I plan to buy full frame spec in PINK, PURPLE, & RED color! And, I want to buy ACE BLACK LENS!! Till then. Lotsa *hugs*hugs*love*love*

Perkahwinan Lain Agama...

My wedding dream

Love wedding dream

Oh look at the picture above! Two newly weds share their happiness... Cherished in a different way, but lead the life as a happy married couple.... So FAIRYTALE! OK chup chup, just looking at this title pun I feel creepy suda. Well, love is not from my own kind, so I feel so miserable of hoping, both of us can get married w/o converting. Hmmm ampuni dosa hamba-Mu ini Ya ALLAH. I cant help thinking such thing. I know love will never follow my religion, as he is a real RC believers. As for me, I wont sell my religion for the sake of love. I love him but thats just not right. So, I read about my RC fren posting about KITABIYAH in FACEBOOK. Its definitely caught my attention coz she's RC, & her love is a MUSLIM. So, it must be connected to difrent religion matters. FYI, I have no idea about Kitabiyah, my guess is about kahwin lain agama, & BINGO! I m just right. So, I google it & found this;   

Source: ERAKITA. 

Islam meletakkan perkahwinan sebagai syariat yang suci dan murni. Ia bukan suatu perkara yang boleh dipermain-mainkan atau dicuba-cuba. Ini kerana, perkahwinan akan membentuk sebuah institusi penting iaitu keluarga. Keluarga membentuk sebuah masyarakat. Masyarakat pula membentuk sebuah negeri atau Negara. Perkataan “keluarga” selalu disebut orang bagi merujuk kedudukan kelompok atau kumpulan dalam sebuah masyarakat.

Contohnya, orang akan mengatakan “itu keluarga berada”. “Itu keluarga diraja”. “Itu keluarga bangsawan”. “Itu keluarga seni”. “Itu keluarga beragama”. “Itu keluarga kaya”. “Itu keluarga miskin”. “Itu keluarga malang”. “Itu keluarga baik” dan bermacam lagi sebutan orang. Melihat betapa pentingnya sebuah keluarga, Islam begitu menekankan peraturan ketat dan teratur kepada umatnya dalam hal kekeluargaan. 

Dalam ajaran Islam, tidak ada istilah “Kahwin Campur” atau kahwin antara berlainan agama. Contohnya seorang Islam berkahwin dengan seorang Kristian. Atau seorang Islam berkahwin dengan seorang Buddha. Perkahwinan ini adalah terlarang dan tidak diiktiraf. Jika diteruskan juga, perkahwinan itu dianggap sebagai tak sah. Bila tidak sah, maka perkahwinan itu mestilah difaraqkan atau dibubarkan.

Dalam konteks undang-undang keluarga Islam, larangan ke atas orang Islam untuk berkahwin dengan orang yang berlainan agama termaktub dalam seksyen 10 Enakmen Undang-Undang Keluarga Islam (2004) Sabah. 

Larangan ini walau bagaimanapun dikecualikan bagi perkahwinan antara seorang Islam dengan seorang Kitabiyah. Untuk lebih jelas, Erakita perturunkan kandungan penuh seksyen 10 seperti berikut. 

ENAKMEN 8 TAHUN 2004
ENAKMEN UNDANG-UNDANG KELUARGA ISLAM 2004

BAHAGIAN II – PERKAHWINAN

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Seksyen 10. Orang dari agama lain

(1) Tiada seseorang lelaki atau perempuan boleh berkahwin dengan seseorang bukan Islam kecuali seorang Kitabiyah.
(2) Tiada seseorang perempuan boleh berkahwin dengan seseorang bukan Islam. 

Berkenaan pengecualiaan kepada seorang Kitabiyah, persoalan boleh timbul. Siapa dia seorang Kitabiyah yang dikatakan boleh dan sah dikahwini oleh orang Islam? Erakita sukacita ingin merujuk saudara-saudara kepada tafsiran Kitabiyah dalam Akta Undang-Undang Keluarga Islam (Wilayah Persekutuan) 1984. Di bawah ini, diperturunkan kandungan penuh tafsirannya.

AKTA 303
AKTA UNDANG-UNDANG KELUARGA ISLAM (WILAYAH PERSEKUTUAN) 1984

BAHAGIAN I – PERMULAAN

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Seksyen 2. Tafsiran.

“Kitabiyah” ertinya -

(a) seorang perempuan dari keturunan Bani Ya’qub; atau

(b) seorang perempuan Nasrani dari keturunan orang-orang Nasrani sebelum Nabi Muhammad menjadi Rasul; atau
(c) seorang perempuan Yahudi dari keturunan orang-orang Yahudi sebelum Nabi ‘Isa menjadi Rasul;

Isu samada masih wujud golongan Kitabiyah pada masa ini, soal itu tidak akan dibincangkan oleh Erakita dalam artikel ini. Mengenai perkahwinan campur atau berlainan agama, tidak ada jalan lain melainkan perkahwinan itu mestilah dibubarkan.

Sebagai umat Islam yang cintakan kesucian agama, kita bertanggungjawap untuk memberi ingatan dan teguran kepada pihak yang telah terlanjur berkawin antara agama supaya mengambil tindakan untuk membubarkan perkahwinan mereka. Apa yang patut dilakukan ialah merujukkan hal tersebut kepada pihak berkuasa agama di mana-mana yang terdekat dengan pasangan. Nasihat yang berguna dapat diberikan kepada pasangan tersebut. 

Perkahwinan yang tidak sah itu hendaklah dibubarkan di Mahkamah Syariah. Setelah dibubarkan, pasangan tersebut boleh memilih untuk berkahwin semula menurut syariat dan undang-undang yang ada atau berpisah terus. Jika ingin berkahwin semula, pihak yang bukan Islam hendaklah memeluk agama Islam terlebih dahulu. Setelah sah sebagai seorang Islam, baharulah pasangan berkenaan sah untuk bernikah antara mereka. 

Justeru, tidak ada jalan singkat untuk berkahwin. Banyak implikasi atau kesan akibat perkahwinan campur itu. Selain tidak sah perkahwinan, pasangan juga menghadapi masalah untuk mendaftarkan perkahwinan mereka. Pihak Jabatan Pendaftaran Negara (JPN) pula mempunyai peraturan yang ketat apabila mendaftarkan kelahiran anak-anak. Perkara-perkara seperti sijil nikah atau kahwin, agama ibu bapa dan lain-lain lagi diperlukan untuk memproses pengeluaran sijil lahir anak-anak.

Persoalan timbul. Bagaimana jika pasangan itu tidak ada sijil kahwin? Apa agaknya status anak dalam system pendaftaran JPN nanti? Bukan menjadi satu kejutan andaikata system pendaftaran di JPN nanti meletakkan status anak tersebut sebagai tiada bapa! 

Banyak sebenarnya kesan negatif akibat kahwin berlainan agama. Selain menggugat aqidah atau kepercayaan seseorang terhadap agamanya, ia merosakkan institusi kekeluargaan. Ia merosakkan keharmonian antara agama. Ia menjadikan masyarakat celaru. Ia meletakkan anak-anak mereka menjadi mangsa keadaan. Selain terdedah kepada ketiadaan bapa dalam system JPN, anak-anak juga terpaksa berhadapan mengenai status agama mereka. Apakah anak-anak itu dianggap Islam atau sebaliknya. Demikian juga nasab atau keturunan anak tersebut yang turut menjadi persoalan. 

Rumusan yang Erakita dapat nyatakan ialah hentikan perkahwinan berlainan agama. Janganlah korbankan kesucian agama semata-mata kerana memenuhi ikatan cinta dengan pasangan. Fikirkan kesannya pada masa hadapan. Kesan buruknya amat besar. Jika hendak berkahwin juga, biarlah menurut hukum agama dan undang-undang.

So, to the left to the right still, perkahwinan lain agama itu TIDAK BOLEH! Pasrah.... Mungkin, ALLAH ada plan lain untuk kami, Mana lah tau love terbuka hati, who knows, wpun I x sikit pun mengharap. Deep inside I know our relation wont work, what makes me still be with him is becoz, I dont want to missed the chance to love someone I really love! For now, I cant let him go..... I will love him till the time he found someone else....

A very own Sunday of mine.....

Sunday Sunday! I'm so loving Sunday.. Time utk merehatkan badan, minda & ke-busy-an kerja. If bole I want to be away from the city. Going to somewhere cool & green with my love. Unluckily, he's not here. Sigh.... Worst, I rvcd a bad bad bad news. He needs to stay much longer in W.P.L. There are more job coming in. He needs to stay. I m so sad, but he needs to work. Its ok, I b patient. Sabar sabar yer Doms! Ok, the story begins, my colleague is organizing a pball tournament. I m planning to just be the viewer, but then my gf calling she's going home, she wont stay till the game end, coz its raining. So leaving me alone, my love is not there playing, so no reason for me to go. Then I happened to be already on the road, w/o knowing mana mau pegi daaa. Then I call my idk wats the status, bf, ex-bf or fren, he dint pick up. I call again, pressing the fon like hell. Still no answer, I tot he might be sleeping, so I made up my mind, I drive to his house, climbing the most upper floor, knocking t red mailbox, t tingkap, calling his name, still no answer. Down there at the parking arena, I saw his car. So, maybe he's home, he supposed to be home. Hmmm.... And there, lightning, thunder.... heavy rain! 1 jam calling, ketuk2 still no answer. I wonder mana dia pegi daa. So risau! Then I decided to just go, maybe he's going out with t new gf or frens. So, I just leave. So, next destination is CP. I need to grab some stuff. I bought myself a lipstick. From Rimmel London, in 070 AIRY FAIRY. It cost me only RM15.90! Great saving ok. Im not a make up heavy user. So, kira ok la tu. I want to try VIVA GLAM GAGA but it cost arounf rm60++. So, I tink I dont need it.. Like I said Im not a heavy make up user, sometimes when I rajin den I will use foundation, blusher, concealer or wutsoever needed in creating a clean glowy face. Tp for me, mcm buang masa ja kan? Bgn dah jam brapa mana sempat make-up2 ni. Nak breakfast lg, urus rambut lg. So, I skipped! Plus, Im not good at it. Putih melepak semacam ja kan  pkai foundation ni. Tebal lg, ishhh rimas. Tp for certain ocassion Im ok. Mcm wedding dinner or any formal function. Kalo jmpa wiv love, simple make-up ok la 2. Tepek ja bedak. Asal dpt cover flaws ckit2 cukuplah. Oh pasal lipstick Airy Fairy, I am so loving it. Kaler x la pink sgt, tp x juga nude. Looks very nice on me (eleh perasan, LOL). Well, seriusly lawa kaler ni, I must say its a must have lipstick for girl out there. Puas hati, I x lah pndai bg a very brief review kan, like the pigment, how long t color last,or wutsoever, tp ckup I say, I love AIRY FAIRY! Gonna be my favorite shades. 

Then I bought a SILKY GIRL LIGHTENING PRESSED POWDER in LIGHT. The price x sampai rm20. Hehehehe. Murah kan kan kan? I tried REVLON Colorstay, SK-II & DIOR before but somehow I rasa x selesa. Mcm tebal semacam ja kan. X suka. I prefer coverage yg nmpk natural! And Silky Girl kan give me that. I x kesah la bpa hrga as long as I m loving it... I pkai hari2, except when Im not going anywhere la. OK jer bedak ni, x la kopak purse, nak keli beli mahal2, hehehe. I bougth the compact for like RM17.91 @ WATSON. I x kira g ofis, or girlfrens out pun still make-up style yg sama, Ckup dgn tepek bedak (no foundation + concealer), black eyeliner (beli kat DAISO jer RM5!) & a lipstick. X paya pkai blusher, shading, n + + make up rutin, jimat masa. Cuma lately, I try2 pulak buat WINGED-EYELINE. Too excited with MICHELLE PHAN & BUBZBEAUTY tutorial. Lgpun, for the time being, I am using my LEVI'S spectacle. So, x ketara la my winged eyeline ni. Bijak kan? Sometimes, rasa a bit semacam jga when mekap tebal2 ni. Rasa x selesa, rasa semacam di perhatikan. Oh ya here's the pressed powder is in SPF25 with lightening complex which gives u a flawless & translucent  (quote from Silky Girl web).

So, brg2 da beli, its time to go home! Malasnya driving. Its raining very heavily. Hmmm tp kalo x drive, mcmana nak smpai rumah? So, I gagahi jga hati ni utk drive. As soon I reached home, I notice my sisters are going out! Aiee aiee, So, I sed, "kamu pegi mana? Ikut...... Ikut....", Because Im too cute to reject, yes, Im with them heading to... CP AGAIN! Nvm la, at home pun boring jga, my love not here remember? So, my sis are actually going to the salon! Oh my AIRY FAIRY! Dah terlanjur ikut, tpksa la join ja rentak dorg. They are coloring their hair! In BURGUNDY shade, just like MINE ok! Ikut ikut! LOL. The color turns out to be very beautiful. It makes my sis complexion goes brighter & fairer. Well, she is already fair, just the haircolor make her skin stands out more. And the hair coloring cost them both RM430 in total. Such a waste! Hey sis, its way better if u give it to me. I be ur grateful sister, I promise! We are heading from like 10PM then coz we take some bite @ FOOK YIEN. On the way home, love call me telling he's going out with fren. OK love, as long as u hapy, I trust u. *love*love*. Then around 12.05AM, darl call, he said he'a at hotel  room oredy, time to sleep! A gudnyte wish from love is my drug! *in love*in love*. Till then. =)